new "con·sens·us" - after 10 years and more of working (a personal note)
I started lying down in the gallery as I usually do, sensing my body, giving it space & time & attention to do what it felt like doing. I could let my environment impact my moves & create a sensorial bond at the moment: pillars, pipes, windows, objects, lines in space etc. while this bond had been always nameless in the past, this time I could combine it with giving it voice-names in my mind, without loosing the sensorial clarity. I then decided that while until now I had always made my moves out of the moment and myself, remaining idiosynchratic, this time I would seize the chance to translate what I was seeing into imagery / energy / referrals for whoever would be watching the performance.
once I went outside, I could suddenly get to yet another level where I also was able to open up on a personal level, and let my heart remain alive & open while doing my dancing. the experience of the Ball I had performed at last Sunday, the Black Grapes, in Rotterdam, second edition of the growing Vogue / Ballroom scene in the Netherlands. the emotional level of daring to be just myself and personal, which got an enormous amount of support from becoming a Radical Faerie, came to a fruitition with the above and I felt I could be the complete master of my dancing and at the same time really have everone participate in their very own way and as they chose. truly a miraculous moment.
Thank you all who brought something into this moment, from the very first con·sens·us partners to more recently, Kaatje Nouwèn & Janine Brall (click here for the photo gallery) Damani Leidsman, Gerwin Luijendijk, Amber Ambiance Vineyard, Micki Prodigy and Karin Trenkel
all photos ©2013 by Gerrit Jan Fukkink, used with kind permission